Magical Times Lie Ahead


Magical Times Lie Ahead

2019 has been a very tough year. I have cried lots in toilets and in the car; have felt angry, depressed and alone. I had an iron infusion in hospital due to having iron-deficiency anaemia; and witnessed the further decline of my dad, who lives with advanced progressive multiple sclerosis. We have also learnt you cannot trust everyone. It has also been emotional because my grandpa died. I also lost a good friend from secondary school, who died due to ill health at the age of twenty-five. We will never forget them.

Despite this, there have been positives and achievements throughout the year. Some of the highlights include:
       Travelling the world, including going to Denmark, Sweden, Austria, Germany and Slovenia. Some memorable moments include going on the rides in Tivoli Gardens in Denmark; visiting the beautiful village of Hallstatt in Austria; and taking in the breath-taking views of Mangart and Mount ┼áija in Slovenia.
        Appearing on Radio Verulam and reading pieces of poetry including ‘That’s Strength’ and ‘I Catch Stars in the Palm of My Hand’, and raising awareness of Crohn’s disease, dyspraxia, anxiety, depression and multiple sclerosis.
        Featuring in Connect Magazine talking about my tandem skydive for Crohn’s and Colitis UK and Dyspraxia Foundation I completed in June 2018; and University of Hertfordshire School of Humanities’ ‘Student Success 2019’.
        Being in contact with the brilliant charities, Crohn’s and Colitis UK and Dyspraxia Foundation.
        Spending time with family, friends and yourself including having a poker reunion up in London; playing many games of pool; and watching the latest films for instance ‘Star Wars: The Last Jedi’.

I also learnt that it is important to never give up, that is important to stick to your principles, and to treasure those are truly your friends and family.

Resolutions for 2020
It is currently Wednesday 1st January 2020 as I write this article and the year and the decade ahead is uncertain, but also exciting. Like always there will challenges ahead, but I hope there will be many more amazing times too.

Here are some of my goals for 2020:
        To achieve something, whether that is to get my children’s novel published or to go on an adventure.
        To explore, including travelling to many countries of the world. All suggestions are welcomed.  
        To inspire others by raising awareness and sharing experiences of living with hidden disabilities and mental health conditions.
        To be kind to myself, including having the courage to say ‘no’ when I need time for myself.
        To be happy, by spending time with close friends and family, and yourself. Through this I will treasure the people who are kind.

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Thank you as ever for supporting me. You are the reason I keep getting out of bed in the morning. Here is to many more magical times ahead.

Jake Borrett and his cousin, Rufus Lakin, at Mangart in Slovenia in September 2019...Copyright © 2020- Jake Borrett. All rights reserved.        

I Catch Stars in the Palm of My Hand


I Catch Stars in the Palm of My Hand

It is 'Anti-Bullying Week 2019'. I was badly bullied during my time at secondary school. I want to share a poem of mine with you called 'I Catch Stars in the Palm of My Hand'.

The message behind this poem is that despite how large the world may seem, you are special. Do not let your bullies make you think otherwise. You are creative, funny, passionate, determined and beautiful, and no one has the right to make you think otherwise. Be brave to tell someone and always believe in yourself.

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I Catch Stars in the Palm of My Hand

I catch stars in the palm of my hand
Little fires shimmer with a silent boy who proved his mind was loud
Bigger jewels expand with cannulas, stool samples, a stomach of spikes
Some as fat as planets circle a man lying in bed with legs as stiff as stone
While others darken with thoughts of taking one leap into the unknown
Then there are others which shine so bright with hope
Each and every star is a memory, a moment, shouting
Despite how gigantic the world may appear, we are not small
We are special.


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Eternal Fires


Eternal Fires

‘Eternal Fires’ is a poem of mine which explores the importance of hindsight and looking back, but more so about the significance of letting go of these past memories in order to move forward to create positive future times. This piece touches upon personal memories throughout too. I hope you have a brilliant October 2019 and there will be lots more articles, stories and poetry on ‘Jake Borrett’s Writing Blog’ over the coming weeks and months. Take care.

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Eternal Fires

We wish happy moments were an eternal fire, always blazing
Playing games of Scrabble and Articulate as we sit on cushions
Walking over hushed bridges under a burnt orange sky
Stroking each other’s fingers under oak trees with birds soaring up high
Laughing over in-jokes, sharing slices of toast, spilling lemonade on our lap
Being together with loves ones where a good day stokes the embers
So, they continue to always shine.
But no matter how precious,
We have to let go of these past moments
If only to make others, and then we can be free


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That’s Strength


That’s Strength

When you say, no.
No to the bullies who punch and kick you in the school corridor.
No to the inflammation that lines the walls of your small intestine.
No to the words which are trying to stay stuck behind your tongue.
No to the confused pathways and paralysed legs and arms.
No to the tumours slicing up your brain, corrupting your memories.
No to the fear of having a couple of drinks of coke with your friends.
No to the top of the cliff, to the bottom of the lake, the middle of the train tracks.
No to the shame of having to ask for help when you need it the most.
When you say, yes
To keep asking, keep believing, keep breathing
That’s strength


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It Takes Guts


It Takes Guts

Sunday 19th May 2019 is ‘World Inflammatory Bowel Disease Day 2019’. This is a time to reflect and to raise awareness of Crohn’s disease and ulcerative colitis, which are the two main forms of Inflammatory Bowel Disease affecting 300,000 people in the United Kingdom and millions more worldwide.

I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease at the age of thirteen in November 2007. It took four years, blood test, colonoscopies and a second doctor’s opinion to get a diagnosis. This was after my first doctor stated the regular symptoms of abdominal pain, diarrhoea, weight loss and vomiting I was experiencing were ‘imaginary’ and a product of an ‘over-anxious mother’. Since then I have undergone surgery, liquid diets and medication to try and manage the disease. In October 2013, during a flare-up that hospitalised me for six days, my potassium levels dropped to such a dangerously low level that I was put on emergency intravenous drips.

However, I have also graduated with a first-class honours degree in English Literature and Creative Writing from University of Hertfordshire; passed my driving practical test first time in an automatic car; completed a tandem skydive in June 2018 in aid of Crohn’s and Colitis UK and Dyspraxia Foundation; and have met many kind, support, determined, empathetic, passionate people living with hidden disabilities. As Crohn’s and Colitis UK have campaigned this year, it takes guts to live with this disease.

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It takes guts to live with a hidden disability where inside your intestine or colon is inflamed and ulcerated but on the outside you look like a ‘healthy’ and ‘normal’ boy or girl.

It takes guts to inject yourself with biologic treatments; take medication tablets with unwanted side effects; to go to hospital in order to survive; to cry in toilets; to feel so scared.

It takes guts to confront doubters, who claim you ‘don’t look sick enough’ to use the disabled toilet as you need to go or need to empty your stoma bag.

It takes guts to stand up to school bullies who call you ‘lazy’ or ‘stupid’, who laugh that your underweight or overweight, you are ‘different’.

It takes guts to say no to friends who have invited you out, because you are too exhausted, too anxious, too depressed to go along.

It takes guts to write poetry, to sing songs, to make videos to express how you truly feel.

It takes guts to talk, and realise you are not alone.

It takes guts to do what is right for you to get through the day.

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Thank you for your kindness and supporting me living with Crohn’s disease, dyspraxia, anxious and depression. I am proud to have written most of these words whilst sitting on the toilet. I will not let any of my conditions beat me, and that in itself takes guts.


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